Sunday, September 03, 2006 '
haiz... wad an aweful day... week... somemore tml.. AIYA... now totally in a confused state... dunno y pple all not happy... seems like a torture to mi... pple not happy... i also not happy... thn somemore so many pple not happy... it is not as if i dun wan to appear in the picture lor... i was behind yu lin... yao wei also saw mi la... i short wad... i extra wad.. the onli guy... no class tee.. mi and wai lok.. fine lor... haiz... thn no space... ahhh.. dun talk abt unhappi thing also cannot.. haiz... i will ans for it if anyone ask... u dun have to worry abt it... if u wan thn tell the whole class to wear the same tee lor... i wun mind retaking agn... i juz dun LIKE TO BE EXTRA!! haiz... ISOLATION... DEPRESSION... WTF HAPPEN SIA... all stored up... no where to sae it out... no mode to sae anything... haiz... wad a loser... feeling so down... haiz... the total change in a person happens in an instant... built up stress built up peer pressure... was having a happi day... and some1 has to spoil it always... y... oh y... how i wish... the world and community i live in.. has no sorrows.. no unhappiness... no stress... no pressure... no negative stuffs... totally... a life that all could ever wish for... if i am made into a genius... i will totally change this WORLD.. not how it was not how it is... but how it will be... no war... total peace... nothing else... no quarrelling... wad a happy world it will be... filled with song... filled with laughter... fill with fun... nothing of the bad and sucky memories... haiz... and today... in church... dunno y juz... aiya... dun sae liao... i dun wan to sae... juz dun feel right... totally outta place... confused state... u were excited abt ur birthday... but now... u arent... haiz... i also dun wan to sae much.. i wish for u to be happi... nothing else... if u feel offended... well... that is not wad i am trying to do... comeon.. cheer up... issit so hard..?? once every year... 365 days... 8760 hours,525600 minutes 31536000seconds before the next could come... when 1 second seems like eternity... u used to be a happi sort... y kant u continue to be? well.. after 11:59:59... u are 15... but... haiz... juz cheer up... and happy birthday... and most importantly... mi and adriel seldom talks... unless see each other on sundays.. trust mi or not?? well.. it is up to u... TOTALLY SADDENED..