haiz... irritated... but dunno irritated by wad.. pissed but dunno pissed at wad.. argh... stupid sia.. today went to play pool.. something wrong sia.. win bird so many rounds.. something wrong with mi.. =.=! play for abt 1 hour++ but.. play alot of rounds.. thn suicide 1 round.. lost to him 1 round.. the rest won.. oh... haha.. thn go home.. siann.. also dunno y walk so slowly home.. seldom walk so slowly de.. thn come home le.. also nth to do.. go polish boots.. but also nv last long.. lost patience.. siann.. very fast dun feel like doing anything le.. thn now.. still gt shirt to dry.. haiz.. so not myself lately.. distracted in class.. also dunno by wad.. thn the teacher teaching i dunno i doing wad sia.. thn the math teacher like angry with mi like that.. haiz.. but.. from her attitude.. it is more like.. i know the steps.. i know wad to do.. but i have to juz do it to get the ans.. (which i am lazy at).. lost the attitude and momentum in my studies.. also dunno wad i wan.. i wan to top.. but.. top and not work hard?! nah.. not possible.. john is working hard.. everyone else is.. but mi?? juz a slacker.. chatting during lectures.. playing.. distracted.. sms-ing.. haiz... so tired.. sleep in the afernoon also cannot.. coz.. later in the night i will be so awake.. that i cannot go back to sleep.. and at the end.. sleep at 12++.. worse.. next day 6 again.. tired.. cannot focus.. lazy.. wad else.. haiz..tml gt the stupid CI course.. thn need to prepare.. but i am not prepared.. mab i shld have gone to TPJC.. i wun lose my focus.. there.. affected by the peers around mi.. thn skateboarding recently.. staying back in school to play.. too much distraction.. taking up my time.. a lot of time.. and left mi complaining.. not enuf time.. thn at night. that 1 game also cannot be a proper game.. haiz... hopeless sia... lost all my optimistism.. well i guess i will be staying 'invis' for some time.. quite mi.. juz need my mp3 player.. or hp.. or laptop.. haiz... now still gt so many things do.. gt the pants to alter.. the shirt to wash and dry.. by 6 tml.. crazzy.. fuked up stuff sia.. brother anyhow take my shirt.. =.=! my one and onli shirt which i can wear to the CIBTC and.. he wore it.. and worse complain somemore.. thn always choose the so'right time' to call mi or sms mi.. i am realli pissed off.. i also dunno wad i wan.. i dunno wad i wan to do.. dun wan to be pissed coz.. it is not good.. but.. pissed off.. will tio complain.. that i always shout at pple.. haiz... wan to play... also no mood to play.. no friends to play with.. play alone.. i rather go do something more useful.. haiz... juz feel like sleeping.. haiz... tml my bro b'day.. or else i will go and drink sia.. oh ya.. still gt some stupid letter to write to the CII.. irritating sia they.. =.= i wan to sleep.. but.. kant.. have to wait for my parents to come home.. or not tml kanna.. now onli 10:14.. siann.. 1 more hour before they come back.. also dunno wad to do sia.. haiz... God bless mi..